New Blog, New Journey!

I apologize for not blogging the past few months – and I probably should have since it would have helped me deal with some personal issues I’ve gone through this year. I have, however, started a new blog, and I am going to be committed to that blog from here on out. If you would like to follow me over there and catch up, I encourage you to!

The new blog is at allofthelittlethings.com. I hope to see some of you there!

 

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(Late) Happy New Year!

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I know I’m totally late on this – but HAPPY NEW YEAR! I cannot express to you guys how hectic it has been around here. Jerry started at a new company right before Christmas, and I must say that the change was honestly for the best. It was the best move for not only our family, but for Jerry as well. He’s home during the day – which is a big help with the kids since I’m at Dad’s treatments every day – and he’s home so much more in general (8 days verses 4 days a month PLUS Monday-Friday during the day). The kids are happier, he’s happier, and I’m happier. He’s got a bit more action with this company too, by the way 🙂 On Sunday I may update with a post of some stories he’s told me since he started here 😀

 

It’s been really rough with Dad. He had his first Chemo treatment on December 22, and he started his first dose of Radiation on December 29. At the moment, he has 17 more doses of Radiation and he takes his last (and third) round of Chemo on Monday. I’m going all out this weekend and making him a huge sign for the occasion (and I will post on Sunday night – just not before because it’s a really busy weekend).

 

Dad has lost some weight since this all began – last week he was down to 128 and the week before that he was at 142. He’s losing his hair, and he can no longer taste anything. His throat is peeling where they’re administering the radiation and every now and then he’ll cough up blood. We’re still staying positive though – as best as we can. Dad’s final day of treatment (Radiation) is February 18th. After the 18th of February its a waiting game for 6-8 weeks.

 

How was everyone’s Christmas? New Years? I don’t know about you guys…but I for one am ready for Spring…

 

By the way, we will be having a t-shirt fundraiser for Daddy. We still have the gofundme up and running – but sadly it is not doing as well as we would like/hope for it to be doing. The t-shirts will be made available to purchase via online. I’ll share that link later.

 

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas to all of you! Sorry for not updating that much here lately, it’s been super hectic around here! I’m sure an update will come in a day or two! I hope every single one of you have a VERY Merry Christmas!

 

 

Have a Holly Jolly Christmas!

Just thirteen more days and its Christmas! I must confess, it’s really not feeling like Christmas this year. Well, half of me is in the Christmas spirit, and the other half is just in the “bleh” mode. It’s been a busy week.. so that’s probably the explanation of it all. Jerry started with a new company today, Dad had three doctor appointments this week, and Sydni had one earlier this week.

Dad goes on Monday to have surgery for the Chemo port placement. After he has the surgery, he can start Chemo within two days after it has been placed – they’re really wanting him to start Chemo before Christmas. He’ll start Radiation on December 29th. He’s nervous, I’m nervous. To be truthful, the only way I’ve dealt with this whole thing is pretty much by pushing it away and acting like this was happening to someone else other than my dad. It didn’t hit me until today that this is happening to my daddy, not truthfully.

I’ve been having issues finding someone who will willingly watch the kids – my grandmother was watching the children but in her mind I’m putting the kids “last” and my father first. It really kills me every time she tells me this – because I would never put my children last. She started today saying that because I had to reschedule Landon’s 18 month appointment (they weren’t able to work Landon in around the time I asked for and since Dad’s CT / Radiation Stimulation was pretty important..I had to push Landon’s appointment off until next week). I’m always criticized, but today was just “not the day” I guess. I took both children with me to Dad’s doctor appointment. Thankfully his appointment happened to be during their Christmas party and the office was technically closed, so the children didn’t have to see anything “scary” (ie: sick people). After the nurse brought dad back, showed me the “mask” they made for his face (so that they know exactly where to administer the radiation – it’s kind of cool, it helps him not move during the 10 minutes it’ll be administered..and hey..it fits his head only), we were talking about the radiation again. She gave me/us the appointment… and I was honestly fine at first..

Then, we put the children in the car…and dad and I were having issues getting the double stroller taken down. It really hit me when I was about ready to throw the stroller across the parking lot (I have no patience). I started crying. Dad thought it was over the stroller – and after we finally got the stroller taken down (yes, I was still crying) and we got inside the car… I explained to him why I was crying.

Daddy took my hand and just reminded me what I’ve been telling him – We will get through this together – our whole family will get through this together. He assured me he has been very thankful for all of my help the past couple weeks – despite certain family members’ judgments and opinions. He reassured me I’m doing the best I can do and I’m doing a really good job at it.

Picked Jerry up from work about an hour later – he had a great day at the new company he went started at today. By the way, I’m very happy he has started here. It’s just better for our family all around – he’ll be working nights but he’ll be home during the day. If I manage to get the appointments for Dad set up just right – he’ll be able to stay awake through them so he can watch the kids for me while I’m with dad. That will help me out tremendously. I’m just glad to see him actually happy after coming home for the first time in a long time – not just because he’s coming home either.

Once we got home, we decorated the tree (we had to make two more trips to the dollar store – we ran out of lights and then we ran out of garland!!) We’ll finish decorating it tomorrow morning 😀

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What are you doing for this holiday season?!

That’s What I Love About Saturdays..

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All Three of my children

Today was a really good day. Jerry’s son, Brandon, came out and visited today. It’s rare for him to actually come out and visit – mainly due to his mother and just.. our schedules. Before today, Landon had only met his brother once. Though he’d only met his brother once, he knew exactly who he was when he walked in the door (which was right after Landon had gotten up). Wherever Brandon went, Landon went. The two of them were never far from each other. Jerry was off today (woohoo!). We had our second Thanksgiving today. It was a really good day today. Though I’ll never be his mom or replace his mom, I love him as if he were my own. I care about him as if he were my own. I would do anything in this world for him, and he knows this. We might not be able to see him often, but he will always be able to call this his second home.

 

How’s your weekend going?

 

God is So Good!

Finally, we received some good news today! First and foremost, the cancer is no where else inside his body. The cancer is only inside his throat. They plan on doing 4 weeks straight of radiation (every day) followed by 4 weeks straight of Chemotherapy. I also spoke with billing, and thankfully the bills were actually less, but not by a whole lot (hey, every cent counts…). Medicare is paying for 70-80% of things, but not all. Again, I hate even asking, but if you guys could somehow manage to donate even just a little bit to the fundraiser for Dad, I would greatly appreciate it. Another, even if you cannot donate…I would like to ask that you guys share it with your friends..your family..on facebook..or twitter.

 

http://www.gofundme.com/stevenbarfield

 

Thank you guys so much for your support!!

Happy Late Thanksgiving!

I hope EVERYONE had an amazing Thanksgiving! I’m so happy we had a good Thanksgiving. We made it through our first actual Dairy Free Thanksgiving this year – without issues. The stuffing was a bit sweeter than normal (I make cornbread stuffing, and so the cornbread has to be made first…and I had to use almond milk to make the cornbread). I was super proud of the green bean casserole, it was made without cream of mushroom, and everyone loved it. Landon was able to enjoy his turkey day like everyone else! In case you’re wondering, here’s what our Thanksgiving menu consisted of:

Turkey

Green-Bean Casserole

Roasted Butternut Squash

Cornbread Stuffing

Honey Glazed Baby Carrotts

Corn

Mashed Potatoes (Dairy Free!)

Sweet Potato Pie

Pumpkin Pie

How was everyone’s Thanksgiving?! 🙂